I decided to write on something off topic. But it isn’t really. I have been doing some thinking lately. Sorry if it seems a little mixed up, but that is how my brain is thinking right now.
As most people know I was born with a disability. When I was younger I was not that happy that I was different then all the other children. However as I grew I have come to fully accept who I am. God made me different for a reason. Yes I might not know why. However I am OK with that.
People have asked how I can be so strong with everything that has happened to me. Well let me explain the best I can. First I have known no different then a life with Cerebral Palsy. Since the day I came in to this world I needed to fight to be here. When doctors tell your parents that you are going to be deaf, retarded and in a wheelchair the rest of your life, you can either live up to those low standards or blow them out of the water. Well not then but as I understood things I decided to blow them out of the water. When you watch your siblings play sports you just want to be part of it, that was the same for me. I would do my best to keep up with them. When I learned about my hip yes, I wondered why me. I don’t I have enough on my plate already. But I thought about it, as this is an other chance to show the world what I made of. So to answer the question being strong is in my DNA. That is the best way to put it.
As for my attitude. I like to think this way. Yeah I could be sad that I have had all these things happen. That is just not me. Yeah I have had down moments in this journey and in life. However I can always pick myself back up and keep on going. The good things always out weigh the bad things. My attitude is my choice.
I wouldn’t be where I am today with out my AMAZING parents. They took me in even though I could have had so many things wrong. They have helped me become who I am. They have shown me the world is full of opportunists. They taught me that I might just have to work a little hard to get things done but that is OK with me. They have taught me that I am different then other people but at the same time that I can do what other people do. But most of all they have given me unconditional love that has taken me so far. They taught me that it is ok that I am different.
So the major point that I am trying to get to is that I love my disabilty. But I don’t see it as a disabilty. It is part of who I am and it will always be that way. Yes my right hand might not work like everyone else’s but I can use it when I need it. I use my hand in my way and it works. Yes it might get better if I work at it. However that is my choice and I will make it again when I am ready. I might not be able to walk like everyone else but I love my Bioness. I am getting better at that every day. thank you Bioness!
I love that I have been put on this hip journey. Yeah it might suck at times but it can only get better. It has opened my eyes to a whole new world. The best part it is pain free, well it is getting there. I am more then happy with who, and where I am. Yeah I would love a teaching job, working on it. I could have been what those doctors said 29 years ago. I am so happy that I am not. I face everyday and every struggle with a CAN DO attitude.
So I guess that this post was just a bunch of my thoughts. But it is great to let other people hear them. The next post will hopefully be hip related more tham this one.